Tail Spends and Depression

I have a wide array of emotions flying today that has me feeling mighty low. It has been two weeks now of me being off of my medication and it is really starting to affect me but I knew it would, so, I just got to hang in there. My focus goes from one of being positive and happy to seeing something negative on TV that briefly reminding me of something that sends me into a tail spend. There is no rhyme or reason to my depression tonight other than I miss my daughter greatly and a lot of regret for my past that has caused this loss in my life. Nothing was worth losing her but it is too late to change what is.

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dewde said…
I said a prayer for you my friend.
12:05 AM
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