Someone my daughter can respect

This has been some what of a rough week for me. Some of the supports that I have established in my life are on vacation. So, I started off the week trying to be positive and on a spiritual high but I soon quickly dropped into a downward spiral. But God is good and provided for me at each difficult situation I faced. However, I am proud of myself because I made it without any slipups, addiction wise. Although tempted at different times by things that really seem to get to me; I was able to make it through, maybe not so eloquently but I made it and that is what counts!

I have learned this week that everyone God has brought into my life right now are very precious and important to who I am to become. God has perfectly placed me where I am right now in spite of myself and has given me great supports that I need to learn to lean on and trust more. I must put pride aside to move forward but most of all I need to stop sabotaging myself. I sabotage myself by not calling these people when struggles come because of embracement or shame. I don’t know who I am these days but I hope God will make me more of the man I so want to be, a man who walks with God, someone my daughter can respect.

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