First time bloger

I am new to blogging but I thought that maybe writing my thoughts would help me get through where I am. I lost everything this year, my wife, my house, my car, my friends etc... I am now living in my parents house at the age of 40 trying to pull the peaces back together. I am attending SA Sexaholics Anonymous and have recently gotten a sponsor. I have a new job that is making half of what I did last year and no way to pay all the bills that I owe nor the ability to pay the court issued child support they are asking for from when I had the better paying job. So, yes, Life sucks for me right now.

Although these terrible things have happened I have to also be thankfully for the good things. I do have a place to stay, I have a great counselor who is open and honest about my addiction, a pastor who has become my friend and is showing me a whole new God, two great friends from high school who encourage me every day and a Sponsor who know where I have been and has first hand knowledge at helping me over come this addiction.

Tonight at the SA meeting some were sharing their story and as one man was telling about the battles he has been going through and the things he has done and is still doing, I had to sit back and say "thank God for this guy, I could be a lot worse off than what I am". That's not to take light or make fun of where that guy is with his battle but a truth that I was needing to realize that God has been working in my life and that things are gradually getting better.

My Pastor my friend is always telling me lets make a strategy. So that is what I am learning to do, make a strategy for every day, every hour, every second. I am learning a whole new God and i am excited about the futre but also scared.