“Surrender”

I went to a four hour SA meeting for people who are new to the program that was called “Surrender”. It asked you specific questions to see if you were willing to give up your right to lust and to surrender fully to God. You would think this would be an easy thing to do and to say yes to but when you are seeking so hard to be real and honest with yourself and your addiction you have to search deep within yourself for the truth before answering.

God is opening up such a new world for me that I am now realizing I am needing to totally give up who I was in the past even before the sexual addiction and porn grabbed a hold of me. I don’t want any part of that old person that I was, instead I want to truly be who God wants me to be. I thought I knew what that was back then but I didn’t have a clue only now am I learning to totally surrender to Him in every aspect of my life. I had to lose literally everything in my life for Christ to rebuild me like he is now, from scratch.

My recovery is just beginning but what a great future I now have in front of me.