Intentional Guy

GREAT DAYS! I am so happy these days as each day a little bit more of clarity is brought into my life. I really enjoyed my small group last night as these are people who have been great examples of who I long to be. It amazes me that we each seem to have similar struggles, maybe all in a different way but similar as in finding our relationship with Christ. I gain strength from their knowledge and victories in their lives. It is good to enjoy life again and even though I know I will continue to have struggles and bad days, it is nice to have the good ones. The Great Days are getting more and the bad ones are getting fewer.

With every day God breathes more life into me. Thinking that I have done all that I can and gone as far as God can use me I see his grace more and more stretching farther than I ever imagined. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. Through resent events and the help of true friends and an unconditional love from God I am starting to see this verse come to life in me. You would think with my experiences in life and being in ministry I would be so much farther along in understanding God’s love and grace and the power in which he can heal but I think experiencing it is a lot better than just a book knowledge that it exists. God’s voice of truth has been my journey in Florida, hearing him through the people he has placed in my life. They have been Jesus with skin , showing me his compassion and restoration.. his peace is starting to grow even more in me…

The LORD is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid? ~ Psalm 27:1 I am so thankful to be a member of the church I attend and to have the good friends from my past and present who are there for me during the rough times. The last two days were difficult but through prayer and a conversation with friends. I have been able to release some frustration that was holding me down. I am going to have to learn to only worry about what God thinks of me and not so much about what everyone else thinks. I have lived most of my life trying to please people instead of doing what I felt God might want. I don't want to disappoint and hurt others but I am learning that I do not have to justify every choice I make to the world.

Today I struggle with some tough choices and am having to seek God in a lot of prayers and hope that he will guide me through these things so not to make any mistakes. I want so hard to do what is right and to know God but the enemy of my soul has other plans and I can feel his attack upon me today very tight.

I am so thankful for God's wonderful restoration in my life. Often the enemy of my soul tries to discourage me and make me feel defeated and then through friendships old and new he restores my fears. Last night at my small group I was able to hear the word from God that my heart needed so much to hear. It is great to have God's peace even when you are not fully happy with exactly where u are in life. I am growing each day and yet sometimes even when I feel like I am taking two steps backwards God shows me that he has carried me three steps forward. Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died–more than that, who was raised–who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? As it is written, “For your sake we are being killed all the day long;...

I know I haven't posted in a long time but recently I have found the victory I had been searching for and fought so hard for over the past several years. It has been through the help of many new people God has placed in my life that I have found forgiveness and grace. I still have to focus one day at time as none of us knows what tomorrow holds for us. I find some days are harder than others but that's because I will allow some one with out grace to enter back into my life and cause my guilt to resurface all over again. I have found strength in time and through others who have been through the same things as me but most of all I have found restoration because others were willing not to judge and to show me God's love and grace. Today I am free from what once bound me but I am also garded so that it may never take from me again.