God has touched me.
I went to church this morning and it started off exceptionally well, the music was probably the best it has been in months and the presentation of it was refreshing. Yet, as I read through the bulletin my heart sunk, I saw that we had a guest speaker and I was disappointed as I like so much to hear my Pastor speak.
Something came upon me though; the instant the speaker approached the pulpit. I felt an inner peace that told me today you are not alone, listen closely, I have brought you here for a reason. That alone was powerful, the tears were right there at the edge ready to pour out. As this man spoke my heart began to wrestle with conviction, emotions, fears, rejections, acceptance, you name it and all came to a head. As the speaker spoke I realized all at one moment, I was in the presence of God! This man look my direction and with such conviction said we have people here today fighting pornography and sexual addictions. He told the people that today this sin is running ramped in our community and churches. He then looked my direction again and said God forgives you and accepts you where you are. The same things everyone else has already told me before but this time I felt as if God came to where I was and sat right next to me, put His arms around me and whispered; did you hear that? I forgive you and I love you! At the second I broke down crying because for the first time I could accept it. I knew I was in Gods favor.
I can not tell you all the words this man said this morning but I can tell you that he had Gods anointing going on, his words were for me it was as if he had read my life’s files and knew all about me. I guess in a way he did because I really think the Holy Spirit downloaded my thoughts last night and said it is time to let Mike know that I am God.
Wow! What a powerful day this has been. After church I sent my pastor a text message that says it all, God has touched me.
Something came upon me though; the instant the speaker approached the pulpit. I felt an inner peace that told me today you are not alone, listen closely, I have brought you here for a reason. That alone was powerful, the tears were right there at the edge ready to pour out. As this man spoke my heart began to wrestle with conviction, emotions, fears, rejections, acceptance, you name it and all came to a head. As the speaker spoke I realized all at one moment, I was in the presence of God! This man look my direction and with such conviction said we have people here today fighting pornography and sexual addictions. He told the people that today this sin is running ramped in our community and churches. He then looked my direction again and said God forgives you and accepts you where you are. The same things everyone else has already told me before but this time I felt as if God came to where I was and sat right next to me, put His arms around me and whispered; did you hear that? I forgive you and I love you! At the second I broke down crying because for the first time I could accept it. I knew I was in Gods favor.
I can not tell you all the words this man said this morning but I can tell you that he had Gods anointing going on, his words were for me it was as if he had read my life’s files and knew all about me. I guess in a way he did because I really think the Holy Spirit downloaded my thoughts last night and said it is time to let Mike know that I am God.
Wow! What a powerful day this has been. After church I sent my pastor a text message that says it all, God has touched me.
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