More than a broken truck

I feel like I have taken steps backwards tonight not because I have fallen but because of the set back with my truck. My Pastor called and said that the mechanic called him and stated it would cost over $1,000.00 to fix my truck maybe even more once they get involved more. I need to let you know that my truck is an old rusted out 1984 ford Ranger I bought for $500.00. The electrical wiring on the truck needs to be redone. I do not know what I am going to do.

I told God yesterday I would trust Him through this incredible valley never knowing how big a task this would be for me to do. The solution to this problem is beyond my comprehension and I do not want to be a drain on my Pastor who I met tonight to discuss what my next step is which is still a mystery to both of us other than to give it over to God. All I could do while I was with him was CRY and I hate to cry I feel like a looser when I cry. You see this is more than a broken truck to me it is a loss of the only independence I have in my life, now I am at every ones mercy to get to work, SA, church, etc…

My Pastor kept telling me not to let the enemy of my soul make more out of this than what it is, a broken truck. I keep thinking God is still punishing me, it is so hard for me to see Gods forgiveness in my life, I can see it for others just not for me. So, on the way home I realized that what I am feeling is an overwhelming “emotion” a feeling that is taking root in my thinking and overlapping into my thoughts of who God is to me. Truth is I know I can not fix anything in my life right now, especially my transportation issues. I have no other choice but to give this fully to GOD!

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Anonymous said…
Dear Brother Mike, Just read your "blog" about your problems with your truck. I am Praying for "YOU" Brother, that God will Bless you with His Peace, Wisdom, Guidance, and Provisions for ALL of your needs TODAY! I ask it all in "Jesus' Precious Name. Amen.

"LYB"
humbly, in Him, ~David~
11:54 AM
Michael said…
You wrote: "I keep thinking God is still punishing me, it is so hard for me to see Gods forgiveness in my life, I can see it for others just not for me"

Read 1 John 2:1-2. The verse says that Jesus is the help, counselor, advocate, righteous one. He is the one that loves you and washes you clean.

Dear Lord, I pray that Mike can feel your love and grace in his soul. Has our advocate and as our conselor speak comfort to Mike and speak to Him so that he knows in his soul that You love and forgive me.
8:01 PM
Anonymous said…
My brother... strange... here I am, in the exact same situation (with a broken vehicle), and I want to be an encouragement to you. Coming from me, this probably sounds strange... but, I know (beyond a shadow of a doubt) that my God is faithful. I also know that you and I serve the same God. Therefore, YOUR God IS faithful. He is also full of compassion, and unfailing in His love. He never - ever - ever gives us what we "deserve", but ALWAYS lavishes His amazing grace upon us. He provides for us in ways we never imagined possible. His mercy is NEW every single morning... deep sigh... He's a good God. We just need to trust in Him. Much of God's love to you, my brother. Walk in the favor of the King today.
9:42 AM
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