Loneliness

Loneliness is such a strong destructive feeling. I hate that all the wonderful Godly things I had accomplished in my life are now over shadowed by these things that brought nothing but destruction to me. I know I sound like I am feeling sorry for myself but the truth is I am not. I just want to have some self worth again in my life. There was not a day go by that I didn’t help someone through a struggle in their life whether great or small and now I send people to jail and my life is full of negativity.

You tell me I have worth and I know God says I have worth but knowing it and feeling it are two separate things.

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Anonymous said…
Hmmmm... I am so sorry that you are "here"... in this place of lonliness & self-"disgust". I empathize... I relate. I don't like it, and my words sound so lame. I am sorry though.... dreadfully sorry.

I am reading a wonderful book. Might you be a "reader"??
1:10 PM
Michael said…
I suggestion a good book, too. The Raggamuffin Gospel by Brennen Manning. That book is awesome. Mainly because the author is a recovreying addict.

Dude, I feel you loniliness for sure. I think that is probably one of the biggest ear marks of the stupid addiction.

Are you making connections with your SA group, your pastor?

I can totally related to knowing in your head and knowing in your heart.
1:30 PM
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