SA 12 step weekend went GREAT!
Well, things went wonderful over this weekend! I would consider it one of the most eye opening and productive thing I have done in a long time. It was about working through the first nine steps of the SA twelve steps program (basically the same as the AA twelve steps program).
The first step is “We admitted that we were powerless over lust – that our lives had become unmanageable.” So I had to write my story out which I thought I had done before but I was wrong, I had left out way to much of my story that needed to be put down into words. I was amazed at what poured out as I wrote my thoughts down. I HAVE A LOT OF JUNK! I found myself isolated in a private-room writing and crying, writing and crying, writing and crying, I think you get the point. I think this was the hardest step of them all, facing the things I had done.
The rest of the steps were also very emotional too. Step two; ”Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity”. Sanity that is something I have never had before in my life. Step three; “Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. I was more than willing to do this step. Step Four; “Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.” Translated this mean make a lot of lists of things you really don’t want to drudge up but must in order to make things right.
The rest of the steps were making more lists and asking God to remove our shortcomings and then making a decision to make amends sometime in the near future with those we have harmed. This was hard to write out all you had harmed. I discovered that this will not happen right away and that I will have to work closely with my sponsor to do this in the right way as to not hurt anyone by doing so.
This was so draining, when I got home I sat down to chill out for a few moments in front of the television and saw a little girl my daughters age crying and I just lost it and cried for about an hour. However, I came away this weekend with more hope and a determination to stay the course God has me on. I am so fortunate that God is walking this road with me!
The first step is “We admitted that we were powerless over lust – that our lives had become unmanageable.” So I had to write my story out which I thought I had done before but I was wrong, I had left out way to much of my story that needed to be put down into words. I was amazed at what poured out as I wrote my thoughts down. I HAVE A LOT OF JUNK! I found myself isolated in a private-room writing and crying, writing and crying, writing and crying, I think you get the point. I think this was the hardest step of them all, facing the things I had done.
The rest of the steps were also very emotional too. Step two; ”Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity”. Sanity that is something I have never had before in my life. Step three; “Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. I was more than willing to do this step. Step Four; “Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.” Translated this mean make a lot of lists of things you really don’t want to drudge up but must in order to make things right.
The rest of the steps were making more lists and asking God to remove our shortcomings and then making a decision to make amends sometime in the near future with those we have harmed. This was hard to write out all you had harmed. I discovered that this will not happen right away and that I will have to work closely with my sponsor to do this in the right way as to not hurt anyone by doing so.
This was so draining, when I got home I sat down to chill out for a few moments in front of the television and saw a little girl my daughters age crying and I just lost it and cried for about an hour. However, I came away this weekend with more hope and a determination to stay the course God has me on. I am so fortunate that God is walking this road with me!
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Blessings,
Barbie
Glad that the SA weekend was amazing for you and that God did something special.
Isn't God wonderful? Please update me on how you are doing on my blog. Peace be with you.