With every mountain...

With every mountain top there is a valley that follows. I hate the roller coaster ride that recovery seems to always take, many ups and downs. I am not struggling though with sexual addictions today or porn (thank God). However, depression is really knocking me down a lot. I am financially broke because I can’t say no to the people I care about and then my responsibilities suffer. I don’t know exactly what I am going to do about this but I know I can not continue this path, especially in my financial areas. I want and long for independence and I am now more than ever determined to obtain it.

I also do not want the blessings I am receiving to be destroyed over this, so I will focus on God more this week and ask him to provide for what I am missing in my life and to make me stronger with the things he has given me, in all areas not just my financial needs.

Tonight is our Monday night SA meeting which I am always excited about. We have a new person coming in which is always a good session to be able to share with someone new what God has done to get you this far in your recovery, especially when they are at the start of their recovery, you can really reflect and see the progress you have made in a much better light.

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